You're back and I just wanna cry, I'm so happy...

Honestly I missed you so much...

I LOVE YOU, You idiot... Of course i forgive you...

<3 Jakob Anibal Balcon <3

So the rents are fighting again... this one is a hell of a lot louder than the last...

They haven't started swearing yet but they have broken a glass, abandoned a half cooked meal and told each other to rot in hell...

Must be a day ending in "y"

**Sigh**

All the kids are currently hiding in my room...

 I just want to say that MC is the best... seriously he is the coolest person i have ever met... lol he he is like a big kid... 

CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO GO BACK...




Had a good morning this morning with sunshine, even if the invite was reluctant from one party or another...

 Love, in all forms, takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.  

You are the Sunshine!

 So i just got off the phone with Camber, and she told me that she is coming here in the holidays!

I'm so excited... i havent seen her in like a year and she would have to be the most amazing chick i have ever met in my entire life... i honestly cant wait, she said she wants to come check out Australia before she moves over at the end of next year for med school... WITH ME!

Ugh I am so excited... I have already started planning all the stuff we are gonna do - including a Veronica Mars marathon!!!

Jake might also be coming over... but he isnt sure because he may have to lifeguard in Ontario, but fingers crossed!

So this has officially made my shit week a great one! Camber I Love You to pieces and i can not wait to see you... in fact i would give up contact with all my friends for a year to be able to spend two weeks with you... LOL... Chicken Noodle Soup Two Sodas On The Side?

 I'm ok...  like seriously, you dont need to handle with care... im not fragile...

I've learnt alot in the past year and i knew from the start what i was in for... 
Your not gonna break me...
So please dont stop being you or act differently... i dont want that... Your my friend, i don't wanna lose that...

 I love you. I am majorly, totally, butt-crazy in love with you!

<3

but I really don't know how...

 Jamie: OK, so you don't care about classes or graduating, but you like school because you're popular and you'll never be on top again. 
Landon: That's thoroughly predictable. 
Jamie: Your act only works on an audience. 

 Landon: Listen, Jamie, I was hoping we could run lines together? 
Jamie: Okay, but just not so anybody knows, right? 
Landon: Well I just figured we could surprise everyone with how good I get. 
Jamie: Like we could be secret friends. 
Landon: Exactly, exactly it's like you're reading my mind. 
Jamie: Great umm... maybe you could read mine. 
[she gives him a cold glare and turns away] 
Landon: Jamie, Jamie I can't just be your friend. 
Jamie: Landon, look, I thought I saw something in you, something good, but I was very wrong. 

 perhaps we celebrate too early... cry a little too late...
take some things for granted... are too quick to hate?


Disappointment

 Ok so today PDHPE and SLR went on a 11 Km hike... only Miss V's class (thats me) ended up getting really lost and walking 20kms instead!
LOL We are very skilled map readers and ended up going to far north east... It was fun though... Andro and Brad saw a snake and shatt themselves... pretty funny! :P
Brit and Hayley went swimming in their underwear... and i slipped a total of 23 times!

It was nice to get away from all the bullshit of life for a day.. to not have to think (maybe thats why we got lost :P) and to not have any contact with anyone outside of the class group...

Miss V's Class is definetly closer after the experience... Love you guys!

What is with you just deciding that today you wanna go there?

You. Don't. Have. The. Right.

you know when you run into someone you used to be friends with and you find that they have changed completely...

well today i ran into my best friend from primary school... we were really close, like attached at the hip... and then high school came... we went to different schools and we just drifted apart...

anyway i see her today and i approach her all smiling and friendly, you know happy to see an old friend and she looks me up and down and says i see not much has changed... i was dumbfounded... by the time i had picked my jaw up off the floor she had walked away... i watched her go, her skirt barely covering her ass and i just thought i cant believe i used to say we'd be friends forever, i cant believe we were ever friends...

Guess people value different qualities... you know i value manners and common decency... apparently she values sluttiness... Goodwork Girl... you've truly grown up to be some one who makes an impression thats for sure

I believe its been almost a year since I actually posted anything here... :O opps!

So what's going on in my life? How long have you got?

I guess recently I've been pretty much a mess... I lost sight of what I wanted and was drifting aimlessly looking for some kind of purpose. I'm still yet to find it... I think that i have been too consumed with trying to get my life how i thought it should be then actually enjoying the way it is.
It's hard to remember that the world isnt against me sometimes though... it's not exactly like i have the best luck and it does get to the point sometimes where i just wanna say why me? I mean I'm kind and I'm generous, i'm not a bad person... so why cant something just go right for once? why does everything have to be complicated?
Love for instance... why is it when it comes to relationships nobody can ever say what they actually mean? Since when does your awesome mean I'm not interested? There isn't anything wrong with not reciprocating someones feelings, and yeh i agree that "I'm not interested" being said to you hurts... but its definitely better than being led to believe you mean more to someone than you actually do. I spent a long time wondering why do guys do that? Why do they set girls up to fall? I came to realize, however, that all people do it. We are ultimately all willing to step on someone else if it means getting what we want. Thats not necessarily a bad thing, but there are certain situations in which we can prevent others from hurting, so why dont we? I don't think its that hard...
I've decided that i am officially going to stop looking for love... it can find me... I don't need to be forever chasing someone who doesn't want me.

In the past year I've had a lot on my plate, my best friend told me she was anorexic and was hurting herself but wouldnt go and see anyone, so i was forced to look after her on my own. That wasnt easy... don't get me wrong, i love her and i was more than willing to help her out, but sometimes it just got to be a little too much, to be constantly worrying if she was eating or if someone had said something to her that might push her over the edge. I began to ignore my own problems because i didn't feel like i had the right to be upset or angry when she was so clearly hurting and not well. For a long time i just pushed my issues aside, I just didn't think about them... that worked for a little while but it really only pushed me to resent my best friend for being needy.
I began to see a psych... I know thats funny right, since they are the only people in the world that i hate more than liars. It started when i had finally convinced Lindsie to get help from someone other than me, she agreed to go if i would go with her, so i did. Funny thing about psychologists... they notice everything!
The woman actually asked me to come and see her on my own because she could see that i was putting everyone else before myself. I did like she asked and i went, the first few times were really hard, not only did i not think my issues were worth discussing, but i didn't know how to open up. I sat there in stoney silence most days, but eventually i was able to let go.
It was good to be able to tell someone all the things that were bothering me, to be able to discuss the problems i have with my father and my own insecurities... Maybe i give psychs too much of a hard time, after all sometimes they can help... when they aren't trying to analyse you that is...

Im feeling a little lost still, i don't quite know what i want from life or how to get it, but as each day goes by things get a little clearer...

I snagged this meme from love_is_epic

you are darkslategray #2F4F4F

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan. Your outlook on life is dark. You're generally a pessimist and everyone knows it; you're the one the come to when they don't want the sunshine blown around, they just want to straight truth. You can miss good things in life if you make up your mind too early though.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

 Happy Birthday to one of my Favourite fic writers,

Angst_Driven

Hope You Have An Awesome Day!

When you see this, quote Veronica Mars:

MEG: My, Veronica, he totally wants to serve and protect you.
VERONICA: Please Meg. We're looking for your man tonight.
MEG: Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.


...and just cos i love it....


MEG: Well, what do you think?
VERONICA: I look like Manilla Whore Barbie. 
MEG: Hmm.
VERONICA: Oh.


Ok last one I swear!...


VERONICA VOICEOVER: J Geils was right. Love stinks. You can dress it up with sequins and shoulder pads but one way or another you're just gonna end up alone at the spring dance strapped into uncomfortable underwear.

cos that last one is just so true!

Hey Flist...

I need to ask you for a favour... *head tilts with puppy dog eyes*
My mum entered one of her reborn dolls into a competition and she needs votes... the other entrants are getting all their friends and flists to vote for their dolls so i thought i would enlist your help...
heres the link to the competition and a photo of her doll...

Please feel free to pass this message along to your flists and family... we need your help!!

http://www.bountifulbaby.com/seaside/index/vote?_s=weWiEhybTMPdJpwW&_k=pqaoeqQS



Thanks so much guys!

		I will marry CJ.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Laguna Beach in our fabulous Shack.
		We will have 3 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Jackass Yellow Xterra.
		I will spend my days as a Fashion Designer, and live happily ever after.

I just wanted to be the very first to say Happy Birthday
To ...

amaleka_crone!!

Have a good one girl!

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

I was tagged by love_is_epic 

I'm tagging: 

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(Sorry if you've already been tagged... it's hard for me to keep up with these things sometimes.)

Okay well...i got bored so here we go
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3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

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